I have achieved absolutely nothing this week.

Wwnt to a primary school gathering last night. I was quite surprised at the number of people who bothered to turn up, more than twenty in total. Looks-wise, they haven't really changed... but everyone seems to have become more mature. Saw Bryan and Xue Ni, both of whom I haven't seen for about four years. Xue Ni changed a whole damn bloody lot man. She's no longer the tomboyish, middle-finger pointing girl I used to know.
The gathering was pretty interesting once the awkaward small talk had evolved into real conversation. Hopefully, this won't be the last time I'm seeing them.

Today, met up with the churchies. Well to sum it up, I ate cow portions of food... so it looks like my strict carb-desert only diet, which I've been following this few days, will go to waste.

I got back my english results and "Aaaaargggh" is the only way to describe them. It's not that they're bad, it's just that they're stupid. Mdm Adibah told me that my writing was "controlled" and that I have to learn to "let go". In other words, I have to be more personal.

Well, that sucks. The truth is, I dont know how to write like that. I just don't like to get emotional. I very rarely write about serious issues. My compositions are light-hearted. I use simple vocabulary. I don't like to put dialogues in my essays as it dramatizes things. That's just how I write.

Really, is being personal the only way to engage a reader? I read a little of a classmate's compo, and wow, was I amazed. I could never write anything like that. It's not exactly something that I would enjoy reading, but it was impressive. Maybe, that's why my essays have been graded A2 at best, I give too little emotion - I am too detached.

But I really can't! I can't even read dramatic stories, let alone write one. Maybe that's why I steer clear of Jodi Picoult books and I think Nicholas Sparks' books are the dumbest books I've ever read. Oh wow, some major character dies at the end! OMG I totally didn't see that coming !!!1111
Though, I have to admit, I kinda liked "A Walk to Remember". Not because of the two main character's undying love for each other, but because the start of the book was quite funny.

[Digression. Two years ago, I had a friend who broke up with her boyfriend and she told me, in-between sobs, that her heart felt like it was being "torn into a million pieces". It took every ounce of my will-power to stop myself from laughing out loud.]

I guess I don't have a choice. Perhaps with the right vocab, my compo for Prelims won't turn out too melodramatic.